My thoughts and musings for the month of July.
Intense. Emotional. Alone.
Whenever I sit down to write an article, I sum it up in a few key words before I put pen to paper.
For this article, I came up with those three words. Uplifting, hey?
You might have noticed that there was no letter in June. Mainly because I felt like there weren’t many positives and I didn’t want my article to be a pity party for one.
Writing about personal experiences and attempting to weave them into a lesson-filled article can sometimes be challenging. Especially when you can’t see the lessons associated with the hardship and just want to sit and cry.
Also, it can feel a little daunting to share your story online, you know, because of keyboard warriors. Hey, guys!
So I didn’t write.
I wanted to wait for things to get better.
I wanted to share a tale of coming out of this black hole I feel stuck in, with some aspirational words to get you motivated and I guess, affirm why you actually follow me, for advice you know, not some whingey article.
But I couldn’t think of anything worthwhile. So I didn’t write.
I thought things would get better and when they would, miraculously my writing mojo would be restored.
But things got worse.
I left a job.
I had a few people deceive me.
I had some people leave my life.
I had someone say no to being in my life.
I felt like I had started back at square one.
Every time I opened my Facebook, it felt like my heart was falling out of my ass whenever someone else was achieving one of those adult milestones. You know, finding a partner, getting engaged, buying real estate or even… having a baby.
As much as I know we shouldn’t compare our journey, I kept thinking about being a little girl believing we all would grow up with a well-paying job, a perfect partner and a Pinterest worthy life. Kind of like as soon as you became an adult that it was automatic.
And now that I’m a year away from 30 and those things seem very far away (sometimes impossible), the anxiety that I’m failing at life is slowly creeping in.
Who will take my advice or buy my future book when I’m the dating go-to girl that can’t seem to settle down?
Or who will take my health or essential oil advice seriously when I still battle with anxiety and I’m a couple kilos heavier than I’d prefer to be?
But then I remember my favourite blogs and my favourite writers, once upon a time didn’t have their shit together. And their candidness about it all is why I love them so. Take Sarah Wilson, I’ve followed her journey and the open nature she presents will have me being a life-long reader.
I guess that’s a plus for those other people, like myself, who also are on struggle street. Our up and down journey, for when we finally tell our tale is at least an inspiring one.
Personally, I’d much prefer to read a dating article from someone who had been there hundreds of times before, compared to someone who married their first love. The same goes for someone who was in the thick of their debt and then managed to build a multi-million dollar company.
Anyway, if you’re reading this and feel like you’re in the very lonely boat of not having your life together, I present to you my current resource list:
1 | Sarah Wilson’s book, First, We Make The Beast Beautiful. It’s a book that reframes anxiety by a very prolific Australian journalist who lives with anxiety on a daily basis. I recommend.
2 | Routine. Sometimes anxiety can come about from the sheer overwhelm of what to do. Get up, make your bed, have a morning routine – whatever that looks like for you. It’ll help.
3 | Essential Oils. Right now, frankincense, lavender, wild orange and the blends of elevation and lavender peace in my diffuser are keeping me calm. If you’re interested, reach out.
4 | Journalling. There’s something cathartic about writing stuff down. It’s most powerful when practiced old school style, aka pen to paper. Try writing a letter to your past, future or present self, or others who maybe part of your uneasy feelings.
5 | Good food. Happy hormones are made in your gut and good gut health can only be, when you eat well. Although sugar and junk temporarily self-sooths, it does more harm than good in the future.
6 | Tapping. Emotional Freedom Technique, or EFT, works to change your belief system. It’s one of those things you need to try for yourself and I recommend Brad Yates’ videos. They’re free.